After writing that last post, I’ve been AWOL for a
month. I haven’t quite known what
to say. You see, two days after I
wrote that, I broke up with the Big Strong Man.
Since I had just talked about him on the blog, and I was
hoping we were thinking we might get back together, I didn’t know what to
say on here about anything.
Especially since I knew he would be checking the blog. So, here’s what I will say:
He’s a great guy.
I’m just not sure that he’s the right guy for me. The jury’s still out, but in the mean
time, I don’t like not writing.
So, you guys will have to be as up in the air as I am about the
relationship, but now that I’ve addressed that I feel like I can write about
other stuff.
Phew. Feels
good to get that off my chest.
Ah, relationships are tricky. And I still haven’t figured out how to handle relationships
and blogging. I wish the blog was
a secret (ooh, which reminds me of a funny story about when I started dating
the Big Strong Man and the blog…I’ll tell you later.) and I didn’t have to
worry about him seeing it, so I could do all of the processing on here that I
wanted. But, it’s not a secret,
and he’s alive and well and can read all of this stuff. So I have to be careful not to hurt
feelings.
Ugh.
Sorry for the break up. I know they can be hard and awkward and... just yucky. My youngest daughter told me once, "He might be a nice guy but if I know I won't be spending the rest of my life with him, then what's the point?" :)
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