Monday, July 18, 2011

Summertime, and the livin' is...hard.

I haven’t been posting much lately because frankly I’m just not doing that great. 

It’s like a million degrees in my house.  When you’re hot it makes everything else seem that much worse.

Summer used to be my favorite.  But that was back before my husband died and when I had air conditioning and a pool at the condo.  So now I’m struggling.  It’s hard because I miss him.  I miss the fun stuff we used to do in the summer.  I miss loving life.  And the summer is full of anniversaries, so there’s just so many more of my “hard days.”

I know I have a lot to be thankful for.  I just can’t think of anything right now.  Ok, I can, I just don’t want to.  I guess I’ve been choosing to wallow.

So, posts may be a bit sparse for a bit until I can manage an attitude adjustment.  I’m working on it.


  1. You are so strong. I post MORE when I'm having shitty days. And then everyone is worried because I only post about the bad stuff, but never get around to the good stuff.

    It's how I keep my loved ones on my toes.

    I love you. I am sorry that summer is so hard. I am sorry that you have to leave your home to find A/C. However, I hear B&N has Frappuccinos AND free A/C with magazines to read while you chillax. I had to spell that F-word five times before finally Googling it, and I'm on beer numero dos.

    Let's visit each other soon, yeah?

  2. I'm kinda where you are....another blogger friend who lost her 5 year old daughter in a drowning accident 5 years ago, calls it a "down yo";)

    A former co-worker and empathetic friend dropped by to visit yesterday...and we talked for at least a half hour. She lost her brother in a car accident about ten years ago, so our kinship was strengthened through our bittersweet conversation.

    I'm not sure if that type of visit or conversation is healing for you...but, if so, I'll be praying that a new or old acquaintance will bless you with their time and caring love.

  3. I miss loving life too ~ Thanks for sharing.