I have struggled with sleep my whole adult life. Actually, I think I may have struggled with it some as a kid, too, but I can definitely say with authority that when we came home from Ukraine when I was 17 my body just could never really readjust to the time change, and I’ve struggled on and off with insomnia ever sense.
I go in and out of phases where sleep is a major issue.
Most widows that you talk to say that sleep is an issue for them, too, and when you add to it that I already had sleep problems, I’ve just sort of been hosed. I never get a night of un-interrupted sleep. A good night is where I only wake up a couple of times and can go right back to sleep. A good night is when I sleep with waking up a few times but the stretch lasts for 7 hours. That’s when I feel like I can cope, but better is when I can get 8 (dream on, right?). A normal night in the last two years is me laying in bed for about an hour or two trying to fall asleep, then finally going to sleep with the TV on, then waking up about 5 times, then having to get up five and a half or six hours after I’ve gone to sleep.
All that is just background for me saying what I’m especially thankful for today.
This week I went to bed one night and was asleep by nine, giving me nine hours sleep, and I only woke up 3 times, so I felt pretty refreshed the next day! I’ve had a couple of 8-hour nights this week, so I’m feeling like a new woman!
I’m especially grateful for…sleep.